The Moment When I Say
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Friday, February 8, 2008 @ 3:59 PM
salamz.
hey, guess what??
i accidently discovered my childhood friend's blog
hehe
and suprisingly, she still remembers me clearly!!
its been ages since we met.. the last time was at.. erm.. masjid istiqamah if i'm mistaken.. back when we were just a little girl, we used to play together.. Al-fadhil Ustaz tgh mengajar, kite dua main2.. yelah.. mase tu tengah kechik.. tak tahu apape.. yang kite tahu cume main.. as we grow up, kite lost contact.. jumpe pun sekali sekale.. tu pun kalau terserempak.. ntahlah, biler dah besar ni, rase segan lak dengan dia hahaha she's in syria right now. hope she's doing fine over there. Innallaha ma'ak ya madihah =)
k k aku bru je letak tag box.. n yup, the colour is way different from the skin. erm. but who cares ryte? hehe so kalau tengok bende tu kosong, paham2lah ye hihi.
aku kat bilek sengsorang je ni.. sorg gi posting, empat balik, sorang gi dating and lagi sorang gi bilik kawan dia. i have a lot of things to do. minit mesyuarat, summary and thesis nye draft.. mengarang lah nampak nye aku jap lagi.. how i wish my kamus dewan is here with me..
suprisingly, he called me up. unexpectedly. talked to him for about five minutes. he denied that he is getting engage.. told me that he had looked back, and decided that its not the time yet.. hah.. lega hati aku haha.. cmon lah.. he's turning twenty this november and yet.. he has yhe intention of getting engage.. which is too abrupt.. maybe dah jodoh, tapi.. looking at that girl's background, aku tak berkenan sey..
know what? when he looked at me that way, it was like.. before.. and i had to look away as i'm starting to crumble inside. OMG, theres still one whole year left.. one whole year left of studying, friendship, joking around together.. stay on our ground.. being an audience of theirr show. i dunno whether i'm hurting inside.. but.. i felt like i was fucked up.. funny aite? one more year of witnessing their love will be a heart yearning for me.. i really hope that i'm strong enough to endure not only this, but other things too..
yikes! need to memorise the versus of surah Al-Baqarah.
"its okay.. theres still hope :) "
-kry.
why does he always appears when i need someone the most?
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