The Moment When I Say How i wish i could slap your face.
Terhasil Pada Thursday, September 6, 2007 @ 5:05 PM

my life is a mess!! everything is not in order. i left my head somewhere under the pillow and my heart.. argh! i'm facing a lousy semester..

its been a loooong period of tyme since i last blogged. a lot of thing had happened since then. everything was beautiful in the beginning. was. until dat fateful 6th august. Haajar blurted out a question for me: 'i heard, the two of them are now an item.. issit true? bukan ke.. i thought.." well haajar.. i thought so too.

the next day, went to the lib and had this monster urge to login the pc. which i did. and, he's online. dia kaC salam pada aku, aku kaC salam pd dia alek. and i did asked the big question to him. and he said: yup.. tapi perjlnn ku dan dia maseh jauh lagi... kau!!! bengong sak ni budak!! then aku mentioned her name, asking wether issit her? instead of answering my question, dia kate: aisyah.. aisyah marah ye? i'm soo sorry.. mintak maaf bebanyak.. and aku tanye la kenapa ko nk mintak maaf dgn aku? ko dah buat salah ape dgn aku? dia kate: takde papela.. saje nk mintak maaf. takot tk jumpe lagi lepas ni.. well hello~! we are studying in the same college. lived in the hostel. eat at the same cafeteria. mustahil kita takkan jumpe. i asked several tyme, kenapa nk mintak maaf ni? still, he gave me the same answer. aku pe lagi, bomb dia sekejap. but still dia kate: i'm so sorry...

peh~ mmg ar depan pc tu, airmata aku dah mengalir sak. kuar je dari situ, aku duduk dgn Qila and tell her everything. airmata aku tetibe jadi murah untuk dia.. Qila tried to comfort me.. but still.. i'm broken heart sey.. haajar plak masok lib tu.. lagila aku melalak..

aku tau aku yang salah. aku tau aku salah sbb letak harapan pada dia. tapi blog, kalau dia tak bwat tu sume, kalau dia tak cakap tu sume, sumpah aku tkkan letak harapan pd dia. aku tak kisah sey blog kalau dia tak suka aku. sumpah aku tak heran dengan dia. bohong la kalau aku cakap aku tkde perasaan apepe sey pada dia after all he did&said to me. tapi, kenapa mesti dia nak bwat ni sume pada aku?? ape sey salah aku pada dia? k fine, she has the looks, she has the brain.. lemah lembot.. sume-sumela.. sigh.. of all people, why must her??? our own junior sak. pandai cakap dgn syais suke aku la hape la. suke tengkorak dia. and now, mmg dah jarang nmpk dia.

after everything was revealed, we went to the Singapore Embassy to celebrate national day. both of them pon pegi jgk. kau!! the WHOLE night, that girl kept om clinging to me sak!! asek ngendeeeeeeeng je dgn aku!! stress sak!! hamdalah aku dapat keep my cool.. if not.. mmg da kene bombard da dorg dua..

to be continued..

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