The Moment When I Say
intheguilt
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Sunday, April 29, 2007 @ 1:48 PM
Dah lama tak berjumpa
Rindu rasa hati
Inginku bertemu denganmu
Biarpun hati ini
Menyatakan benci
Namun hakikat
Kau masihku sayang
( 1 )
Mengapa kita berjumpa
Dan mengapa kita bercinta
Niat hatiku nak kekal lama
Hidup denganmu wahai kasih
Niat hatiku tak nak berpisah
Apakan daya jodoh tiada
( korus )
Kenangan demi kenangan
Menjelma diingatan
Sukarnya melupakan dirimu
Rintihan demi rintihan
Menyeksakan hidupku
Aku derita...
keranamu
Oh kekasih
Sungguh tidakku sangka
Akhirnya begini
Sebuah ikatan asmara
Engkau yang aku sayang
Yang aku kasihi
Mungkinkah bersatu kembali
time balek dari swensen, aku tetibe have the urge nk kuarkan the stuffs behind my i.c. which is of course, his picture. his picture, which i took during QUQ tutorial, is still in my possesion. i look at his face. all those sweet memories flowed back through my mind. replaying like a video. i miss him. miss him lots. missing him too much.
semua yang terjadi, ade hikmahnye. well, maybe. still figuring wat is the hikmah behind all these. i dunno.. bile aku fikirkan balek, our views were quite far apart sey. he didnt takes things like i do. and vice versa.
i have to keep moving on sey. i need to learn how to put things behind me. although i'm the one who is at fault. but.. how??? i havent figure that one out.
maybe.. just a big fat MAYBE. i feel that my love for him is fading slowly is because dah lama kite tk bersua muke. emails pon sekali sekala. (blom rep lg ni email dia!). sms pon like seminggu adelah dlm tiga kali hehe. maybe sbb aku tk jumpe dia hari2.. aku tk share kebingitan aku dgn dia, aku kinda, again, a big fat KINDA, aku mcm jauh dari dia.. tapi tak tau lah nnt lau school reopen sey nanti..
hey, know what? i do miss you.
crazy eh?
i remember that syais penah suro aku mintak pendapat qila when i'm about to make that decision. but i declined. aku mati-mati taknak. till now, bile qila tanye aku muaz ade msg kape tk, aku jawab lah sejujurnye
- Yes.
tu je aku akan jawab. not more. frankly, aku bleh agak how she's gonna react upon hearing the thing that i've done. n aku malas nk dengar dia buat ulasan pasal akunye story ni. therefore i rather keep my mouth shut sey.
upon hearing lagu Arrow ni (aku kebas dari Mumul kekeke), tetibe rase sayu gitu.. betol pe? niat hati aku mmg tknk berpisah sey.. kenape la kite jumpe dan bercinta?? tapi.. skrg ni.. nk wat camner? jodoh dah tiada.. kenangan demi kenangan terbentang di mata aku bila aku tengok gambar dia.. sedihnye~!!!!!
rase sebak. tapi kt lib ni. agak2 klw aku nanges, konfem org tengokkan! malu malu! kekeke
dahlah..
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